Thursday, September 2, 2010

Three Year Anniversary!


I've debated for awhile now if I should do a post on this and finally decided this is my journal and I can put it in there. On September 4th it will be my 3 year anniversary after having weight loss surgery. This picture was taken the day before I had surgery. I've been thinking what I learned from this whole process and thought I would share my thoughts. Having surgery was the hardest thing I have ever done. I thought about it for many years before I made the decision to do it. I was so afraid I was going to die. I had heard all the horror stories. I just knew I couldn't live like that anymore though. Once I made the decision I was afraid to tell anyone I didn't need to hear anymore stories. I told very few people before I did it. I remember the day of surgery I was scared to death. I thought I was going to jump off the table when I was waiting to go into the OR. After the surgery it was rough. If I hadn't had the support of my family and some good friends I don't if I would have made it.

What I have learned through this process is that you need to love yourself no matter what size you are. I am still the same person as I was 3 years ago. I am a little more confident and I can do more things that I couldn't with the extra weight, but I am still me. I got so caught up in the negative self talk that I couldn't live my best life. I now realize what I did to my daughter by all the negative comments I made about myself. I really wish I hadn't done that. I should have been teaching her that no matter what size I was that I was still a good person.

People ask me all the time if I am glad I did the surgery and I reply with a yes, but I sure wouldn't want to do it again. I get to enjoy so many more things with my family now, but more than that I feel healthy. Health is what it is all about. I want to live many more years with my family. I remember the first time I jumped on the trampoline with my kids. I started crying. I had looked at that trampoline for years and just wanted to jump with them. Then once I could jump with them I had to worry about wetting my pants. Oh the joys of being a woman.

I am so thankful that Mike loved me all those years whether I was 250lbs. or not. He always told me that I was beautiful no matter what size I was. I am so blessed to be married to a great man.

8 comments:

Kerstin said...

You are beautiful! Always have been and you are such a wonderful person! I love you for you! Thanks for being such a great friend and neighbor! glad we are still together on Sundays..

Jacob said...

Love you!!!

The Jensen Family said...

Angie, now and three years ago I have always thought that you were beautiful. I love that no matter what size you are, you are always dressed so fancy along with the good hair and make up. That along with the great personality is what your friends see. I am so happy that you can see what we have always seen in you, and I am so happy that you were able to jump on the trampoline. YOU ROCK!

Mylee said...

You are one inspiring and beautiful lady!

gmakathy said...

Always loved you. Always will.

Km said...

Oh Angela, you have always been so wonderful. WE have all loved you no matter what size you are. You have also taught us how to love unconditionally no matter what. I am so glad that we were able to run our first 5k together. It has been fun seeing you set goals and achieve them. When I grow up I want to be just like you big sis! Love you!!!

Jer + Lu said...

So proud of you for posting this! I think it's great to share your story. You are truly an amazing woman. Yay for jumping on the tramp!!

Jen said...

Yea! I cannot believe it has been 3 years! I am so happy for you---seems like just yesterday that you and I would get up at 5:30 in the morning and go walking. I still miss those morning chats! Miss you tons....:)