Monday, August 8, 2011

Freaking Out!

Today I am having a slight panic attack. I am sure it is due to a lack of sleep. I started my new job working in Labor and Delivery and worked last night. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep today. It just hit me that in a year from now we could be empty nesters. Eric will be starting his senior year of high school in a couple of weeks and then who knows what he will decide to do. I can't even bare the thought of having a house without any of my kids here. I miss my Katy so much.

I start school again in 3 weeks. This will be one of my hardest semesters. I will be taking 3 classes rather than 2 and they are rough ones. Thus another reason for my anxiety. Part of me wants to give up on this school thing. I feel like I've been going FOREVER. I just don't know when I will be done. I know I can't quit Mike will kill me, but sometimes I really want to.

Like I said earlier I started a new job this week. I have wanted to work in OB for so many years. I am so excited to have the opportunity to learn and be challenged. I am a little nervous about all the things I need to learn, but it will be a nice new challenge.

Okay now that I've got it on paper now maybe I can stop freaking out and go with the flow of things and stop worrying. I know it will all work out but sometimes I get overwhelmed with all these thoughts going on inside my silly head.